thanks to everyone for coming last night! it turned into sort of a party. however, i feel like there was something vaguely wrong with the proceedings... (note: i actually do "feel" this, rather than think it) i can't quite figure it out yet. i think i need some time to crystallize whatever it is.

so far though, there are a few suspects. the people, the disorganization, the beer - leading to some secondary reasons, such as my losing money, and my having a slight headache this morning. i think poker doesn't mix well with party.

i think the next poker game i get together will be more serious. a set time, a set number of players, and a sober atmosphere. poker doesn't work the way i like it with lots of people, arriving at staggered times, and some not really knowing the rules.

i'm not talking about anyone in particular! if i was, i'd name you. and i'm not trying to be mean.

i hope i'm not just bitter because i lost money. i don't think i am. but from now on, i'm going to try to keep poker and partying separate.

regardless, i will probably try to organize some more beer drinking this weekend. without the poker. we'll do something that doesn't require so much concentration.

other thoughts:
grace's friend miriam hated me right away! i've never actually felt such instant dislike. it was kind of funny.
kelsey's friend bonnie was offended by my attitude. asking her not to bend the cards, and starting over on a misdeal. does that make me anal retentive? one reason i'm going to keep poker serious in the future. anal retentive serious.

sai is not pregnant. i don't know who started that rumor.

grace, thank you for winning those last 2 hands. i think i would have been down over 15 dollars instead of just 11 and change, if you hadn't played for me.

dave, mike, raj, sorry you guys lost so much money. jeez, that was ridiculous.