_hate it_

i saw anchorman today with josh. i laughed almost the whole way through it. but the movie has no merit, so to speak. i got nothing out of it. i paid, i sat, i laughed - a lot, to be fair, and then i left. overall i'd rather have a movie with some attempt at significance, at least a little bit. oh, can't ever go wrong with journey, though.

i wasn't planning on writing any review for it, because it wouldn't be fair to the movies i watched before i left mass. but didn't review on here, but those few sentences are about all i need. i'm sorry, pre-va movies. for now, EVERYONE SHOULD RENT DUMMY. with adrian brody. he wants to be a ventriloquist. it's amazing, and pardo gets all the credit for picking it out.

my time lately, as i've said before, has been completely occupied by buffy and ffx2. i have just about 70 hours in ffx2. sickening. and i'm on episode 4 of season 4. that's... 12 + 22 + 22 + 3 = 59 * .75 = 44.25 hours of buffity. jesus.

i was considering a post earlier about how relieved i felt whenever i watched any scene between buffy and angel during which they get emotional. relieved that i don't feel anything like that about anyone, and that if i used to, it was really just me kidding myself. god, that show is a lotta soap. joss mentions it whenever he does an interview about any episode, how the show is one part comedy one part action ? parts soap. anyone who loved that terrible dawson's creek would really worship this show if they gave it a chance.

i mean, it's a love story about a vampire slayer and a vampire. how corny does that sound? still, sarah michelle gellar puts on a pretty convincing cry. and she does an extremely good job of looking badass tough one minute and then little girl vulnerable the next. when they were in the sewer and she asked angel, "how am i supposed to stay away from you?" i really felt myself becoming a woman.

also bugging me to post: you have this show. a central aspect of this show is a story. a love story. about two people. in love. these two people are in love. they are, in this show, meant to be together. i _hate_ it so so much when they separate, as they inevitably do in any show, and move on. i hate it. hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it. it doesn't matter to me that maybe no two people are meant for each other in real life; i don't want to watch real life. i could live real life; i'd rather watch fake nice life on tv. (do i start overusing semicolons when i rant? that's odd, isn't it?) i don't want to see buffy move on and sleep with other boys. i don't want her kissing other boys. i want her to be miserable and cry forever or get back with her one and only. this moving on option should not be an option. does this make me a girl? or a wimp? either one? it just feels wrong, inside.

i understand that there exists a very supportive online community of "DJers." These people have online message boards and they honestly refer to themselves as DJers, short for ?Dawson Joey -ers? Never mind how i know, or how infinitely pathetic they, and by some extension, myself, are and am... we share the same moral outrage, although i feel i can confidently say they are on (much much) shakier mental ground than i. keep fighting the good fight, you sad crazy loveless bastards. (am i talking to myself or to DJers? even if i wasn't just talking to myself, i definitely just asked myself a question. on my blog. i need help)

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