i like anime

because it always searches for meaning. true, oftentimes it fails, but every so often i watch one that leaves me feeling, even if i don't know what the hell that feeling is.

normal tv just feels like opiate for the masses. what's been popular these past few years... friends? dawson's creek? the oc? seinfeld was funny, but it was empty. it seemed to me that that was what the whole last show was about, how all those years i watched it didn't mean anything. the simpsons used to be smart and satirical and witty, but it's just inane and bizarre now. like those shows on cartoon network, aqua teen hunger force or harvey birdman, attorney at law or sealab. they all rely on nonsensical humor. and don't even get me started on reality tv. one of the four horsemen of the apocalypse, in my eyes.

some shows are still holding out. the daily show is intelligent. south park is not afraid to say as bluntly as possible when it thinks something is stupid. firefly is amazing.

but every time i see an episode of cowboy bebop i feel filled. my life right now isn't special and isn't headed anywhere special. i think that's how the creators of the good anime feel, and i think they're filling a void within themselves by creating their own meaning, even if it's fake. i imagine anime fails at meaning when the creators are only imitating the good stuff, without feeling that same lack.

every time i sit through all six episodes of flcl, i feel like there's purpose somewhere in the universe. i can hear grand music in my head. i think it's similar to stephen king and the chorus that accompanies his rose. i don't understand how people can watch that series and not feel moved. there's so much meaning in there, incomprehensible though it may be. i wish i could either make everyone watch it and be affected by it (it's a good thing), or i could understand how someone could not understand.

this whole post is super weird. forgive me if i just wasted your time.

really, if anyone is curious about flcl, i'll burn the series onto cd and mail it to you. it's that good, and i want to share it with people.