last one

i don't have the ability to go back in time and edit what i said, unless one counts editing old posts. but i can clarify, which is what i'll try to do here.

i wasn't hurt at the time. i _still_ don't care. i said that i didn't feel offended. what i _should_ have said after that was, if my feelings had been hurt, austin's concern would have taken care of it. and austin, without really knowing what happened, told me that whatever had happened he hoped i was ok about it.

i didn't post a public critique. or i didn't mean to, at least. at dinner, after natalie finished fucking with me or blowing random smoke up my ass or whatever it was, there was definitely a distinct awkwardness that someone tried to dispel by saying, "i don't know what just happened," to try to move past it. people were confused and i thought i could explain what i was thinking.

sorry.