wsop

i have trouble watching it. there are 3 times as many entrants into the main event this year, rougly 2400 as opposed to 839 in 2003. so many things bother me: phil hellmuth, chris moneymaker, waching a moron pick up his straight on the river and congratulating himself, and seeing the pros get beat by the amateurs. no one understands how much mental damage poker did to me senior year. usually things went down as they should, but whenever it came to an all-in showdown between me and someone else, i would lose. and i'd have the better hand, almost every time. you all probably think i only remember the bad ones, and i'm exaggerating, but i am NOT. it didn't matter if my opponent was drawing to a straight, or had only _one_ out after the flop (3/47 then 3/46), they would win. or rather, i would lose. call it negative thinking, but i took beat-down after beat-down in that EC common room.

i'm not saying i'm a pro that played with amateurs. but that's how it keeps happening on the wsop. i know my probabilities, and i played almost every hand like i should, but it didn't matter.

really, you can't understand. you just can't.