fox = noob

i need to pack. i drive back to massachusetts on saturday.

since reading love in the time of cholera, i've also read 100 years of solitude. i like the latter more. it's very confusing, and there's a bit more incest than i'd like, but good stuff.

i ordered firefly for jillian, since she is a fan of buffy and she needs to watch this show. it arrived monday evening. i've watched through the entire series again as of tonight, and i watched the commentary for the last episode by joss.

fox execs. my god. what are they doing. who are they. the critic. the family guy. futurama. arrested development, almost, before the SEVEN FUCKING EMMY NOMINATIONS slapped them in their collective face. and this series, this incredible series, shown out of order and with 3 (i think) never aired episodes.

there are so many moments in the show that tear the heart. it's amazing. joss whedon is a cruel cruel man. he loves - i'm not sure how to describe it - but it's like if life at a certain moment could go two ways, the happy and the awful, and it's really just a coin flip, 50/50, heads or tails, joss picks the awful every time (is that tails?). and it is that much worse for having been that arbitrary, for being that close to happy. he did it in buffy too. bastard.

the moments that really stay with me.
inara sobbing by herself in "heart of gold." wow, she is somehow beautiful, especially beautiful, while bawling. _any_ moment with saffron. when malcolm asks niska if he wants to meet the real him. the entire last episode - "little man loved fire."

this is more heart tearing than favorite moment, i guess.
the fact that - wow, i can't remember his name, the doctor - sean maher - i remember everyone else's name, but not his. how is that possible? simon! simon tam. i can't remember anyone ever referring to him as anything but brother or doctor. i had to think of jubal addressing him; i guess because that's more fresh in my memory. anyways, the fact that simon and kaylee almost kiss, but book comes in right at that moment. bastard. and they never will, because the show is cancelled.

like i meant to do with equilibrium but never did, i should buy multiple copies. of this show. many many copies. i like it more than buying only one set really conveys. if fox gave me a concrete number, for how many times i, myself, would have to see the movie to guarantee a sequel, i would go that many times, plus 1 or 2 to be safe. apparently one of the agreements for making the movie was that the show could not be restarted for some period of years after the movie airs. how shithouse is that. fox is lower in my shithouse than blizzard, and that is saying a _lot_.