practice last night was exhausting. part of the problem was that i went to lion's head right before and had a pint of guiness with a bowl of chili. another part was that i was hacking up a lung all through practice. and another was the extremely lopsided teams for scrimmage. i had bill and corey on my team, but corey doesn't handle. i was running all over the place playing dump and cutting for bill when he had the disc because no one else would. it was fun and really frustrating at the same time.

it turns out both problem sets that i thought were due today are due thursday. this is a problem, because i won't work on them until wednesday night. this is a problem, because i have an asian civ paper due on thursday. i have not done any of the readings besides half of them for the very first class. i'm screwed. plus, the LSATs are this saturday, and i have not thought about them since taking them in june and then cancelling.

next few days are gonna suck.

great weekend. despite mary leaving thursday night and telling me she'd be back saturday night. i doubt i'll see her until tuesday. whatever.

characterized by lots of napping. due to data structures, sectionals, and partying. for instance, i just woke up from a 3 or 4 hour nap, i think.

first off, data structures assignment due thursday morning at 11am. i decided i'd use a late day so i didn't really start until friday evening. i worked on it for a long time, slept from 6am to 9:30 am, and just barely finished it in time. submitted the program at 10:34 and handed in the written part ~11:15 (the prof. didn't seem to mind). my code worked perfectly except for one small error with the Remove() method, I couldn't figure that out. but i'm confident i'll get close to 25/25 on the homework.

friday mara came over and watched tv for a few hours. it was great, she was supposed to do work, but i managed to procrastinate on her behalf for that long. napped a bunch. i also saw the rundown that night, with the rock, which was really great. i think after seeing once upon a time in mexico and underworld, i was plain relieved to see a movie that didn't suck.

sectionals was a lotta fun too. we went 3-1 at suny purchase, 14-12 yale, 7-9 vassar (this game's flow got disrupted by lightshow breaking a guy's nose), 10-5 nyu, and 11-5 cooper union. i had no energy for the first game, but after that, i played pretty well. i got some d's, a lot of touches, played good defense (i only got beat in that first game, i think), and scored a few. actually, i didn't score very much. i think it's because i always passed it to the assist. i'd bust for the stack to make a cut in the endzone, but we'd have already scored by then. that's good enough for me, though. playing with jon is incredible, he just created flow whenever he was on the field. he got so many d's that weren't even on his man, every game.

was so exhausted after that so i napped for a few hours. then headed to hogan 2b for the taco + tequila party. too tired to start drinking until later, and even then, i didn't have very much. we moved it to my place round midnight because someone's mom was staying over in the suite next door to austin's. i booted all over my table and playing cards playing this incredibly awful game corey knows called "drunk driver." the party was shrinking but still going full swing with music blasting and people screaming along, until cu security came along and busted it up. fucking pigs. it's all right, supposedly my info just went on file or some shit.

london came over today and helped me to clean. thanks london! :) she wiped down the counter and the table. i need a mop or something to get the floor, though, it's atrocious. after that i napped some more. and just woke up.

i'm back to logging my boring life, instead of coming up with interesting ideas. oh well. what will be, will be. so it goes. and all that.

i'm at the interchurch center again, in the CFR (corporate and foundation relations) office. and yeah, they wiped the documents i'd saved onto the c drive and that really sucks. kind of unmotivating. maybe i'll go home. all i've done here so far is eat lunch and look up my data structures homework (which looks doable).

on another note, i think i want to reverse my stance on cameras. i'm going to be sad when i'm older and i don't have any pictures from the "best" years of my life. plus, i want a picture of mary while she's still hot, before she turns into one of those brown, leathery vultures one sees rotting away in florida. mary, you are going to have so much skin cancer. outta control.

so anyways, i was looking up reviews on cnet, and the canon s45 looks pretty good. it's normally around $500 on most websites, but buydig.com has it for $344. but buydig also had all these kits, for batteries and bigger memory cards and chargers and usb card readers... jeez. does anyone who has a camera want to give me any tips? i don't know what to go for, really, even after reading cnet's buying guide, which was pretty helpful.

(i edited out some girly content because stephanie made fun of me)

oh yes, raj started a blog at some point. it's on the left, if you want.

it's 4:30 am. this is what i get for falling asleep and missing practice. i flopped into bed around 6 pm because i was bored and didn't wake up until 9:30. i'm even awake enough to do work. not that i'm going to. i did some signals and that's good enough for one night.

wow, what a worthless post. hmm... i'll mention mary in it, because she really seems to get off on seeing her name in blogs. hi mary! see you in south asian civ tomorrow!

the one thing i liked about underworld was kate beckinsale's character's name. Selene. At least I hope that was it. I don't like Celine -- besides being the name of that Canadian banshee, it's just not pretty. I think I'll look that up on IMDB now...

YES!! it is Selene! how did i know? or is Selene also a common spelling of the name? either way, it kicks Celine's ass.

i'm sitting at work now. after coming in for 3 days last week and not having a computer, they finally set up my old one again. it's pretty crappy, especially compared to the new sleek black towers with the flatscreen monitors everyone else has. but who am i to complain (an office assistant)? i was excited because when i came in last monday, there was one of the new computers at my cubicle. but that's because they had set it up for someone else to work on temporarily. and they didn't know i was coming back, so they cancelled my login and put this computer away. it also seems like they wiped everything stored on my login's network folder. which is bad. but i don't want to deal with it now... i think i'll go eat lunch instead.

it also means no aim at work until i figure out a way to get around the admin's installation protections again. last time wasn't so hard. but i should get the newer version so i can do that transparency trick. or is that a deadaim feature?

what have i done lately? i've hung out with mary, which is always really nice. especially because i think we're always on the brink of not talking to each other ever again. but i'm glad she is willing to spend time with me.

i saw the ring last night with mara and her friend from out of town, josh. i borrowed it from raj, walked over to jts, and we started it around 2am. we finished around 4am. there was no way i was walking back home alone after that, so i asked mara if we could have a sleepover party. she was nice enough to say yes. and there was no slutting going on, so don't ask (i mean, her friend was staying overnight. not that that's the reason for it, but you know).

so scary. so scary. i do not understand how raj can keep the dvd in his room. without burning it. repeatedly. originally, mary had suggested seeing it together (while it was out in theaters). but she quickly changed her mind and i haven't been able to convince her otherwise since. i'd been saving seeing it for her, but i finally gave up. in a way, that's good, because having seen it, there is no possible way that i could subject her to seeing it. she would cry and cry and cry. and never sleep again. poor mary...

i've been listening to this song, "feelin' the same way," by norah jones (big wuss, i know). i think it's almost exactly how i feel. even though so much has changed for me over the summer. i kind of need to start a private journal, because a lot of stuff is too weird and too personal to share in any form, there's no one i would want to tell this all to, and no way i'd blog it. maybe i'll just think about writing a journal and that will be enough.

i wrote "no way" 3 times in this post. i'm trying to think of another phrase that does the same job, but i can't. sorry.

i just saw once upon a time in mexico. it was bad, but enjoyable at points.

i just saw underworld. it was so terrible. so terrible. i could write 5-8 paragraphs on why it's so bad, but i won't bother. please don't give it any of your money. please. i'm begging you.

thank you, tao, for recording the events of the past few days, so i don't have to. check out his blog to see what i've been up to as well.

i found my lab notebook! I FOUND IT!!!!!!!!!!!! so happy. i had a spur of the moment party, sort of, especially since i was supposed to be home this weekend. it turned into an incredible sausage fest, but i was still happy with the way it went. basically as soon as i asked who wanted to play a drinking game, all the girls left. but by all the girls, i mean mara and sai. boo to kelsey and london for not coming. thank you to mara for making an appearance. thank you sai for coming back again later, with corey. and thank you mary, for wearing that incredible fishnet shirt. and having the decency to wear a bra. sara and pooja, i'm sorry the party wasn't more fun.

at one point, i looked around, and it was poker at the table, and soul caliber 2 on the tv. that's all i need. heh. sausage.

unrelated: one day brian white is going to be on the news for doing something incredibly stupid and awesome, and i can point to the tv and say, "hey! i know that guy! we were on the frisbee team at columbia..." that's gonna be cool. i'm looking forward to it.

happy birthday, sai

happy birthday, sara

so i just got home from practice last night. the girls didn't have lights on the grass so they played with us. it bothered some of the guys, but i like it. not enough pt, really... but that's ok, it was still fun to play coed. i went up against John (jon?) from harvard in the hucking contest (receiving, that is) and he beat me on height, we were pretty even running. but before that i must have caught 8 or 9 perfect hucks from bill. lots of fun.

also fun was (almost) catching a huck that went right over john and dave keck, but flapjacking it. and then catching a huck that both bill blinn and keck tipped.

i was going home but it was easier to stay sitting than get off at 116th, so i went to lion's head for the wings. i forced tao to get 2 pitchers with me, and i ordered wings late, so we were the only ones left with too much food and too much beer. i had a really good talk with him. i told him how much i respected him for improving everything an ultimate player can improve at, and that he's been a good captain so far. he in turn told me that austin and he had discussed how i was getting better and that i play a lot like matt. which is one of the greatest compliments ever. one thing i do now is as soon as i catch it i throw a forehand fake, which matt always did. i never even realized that... but what i'm doing is looking for the flow. sadly, no one is ever there to throw it to. pretty cool, though.

then we went back to hogan to watch a movie. game was in OT, and after the giants won we put in better off dead. i fell asleep shortly after beth broke up with lane, which is really really early. i woke up at 4:45 am, peed and brushed my teeth (i left a toothbrush there so long ago, and it's paid off!), and went back to sleep until 10:30 or so.

decent night. life is pretty good.

in case you haven't noticed, i'm transitioning this blog from a boring chronicle of my mundane existence to a collection of short thoughts (blurps? i like the sound of that. that's what i will call my entires, blurps) i post whenever i feel like it.

2 things:

it's almost 4am. it's weird, whenever i sit here with nothing really to do at this late hour, i wonder what people that i haven't talked to in a while are up to. i emailed grace and makiko just a few minutes ago. if i didn't stay up late and sit here, i think a lot of my relationships with other people would just fade away.

i like late night showers. i don't really take them in the morning, i never have the time. and i only take them during the day or evening if i really need to (as in i feel absolutely disgusting or i peed on my own foot earlier in the day). but the problem is i feel somewhat obligated to stay awake for a set amount of time (don't know what that amount is, but it's set) and appreciate my super cleanliness. i mean, i don't get much cleaner than i am right now.

going to sleep now.

i hate it when someone tells you they have to go, or they're going to bed, or some such. and you say goodbye, and they're online for another good 15-20 minutes before putting up an away message. hate it.

one of the saddest things in life must be being a parent and knowing your child is unhappy. or maybe having multiple children and knowing more than one is unhappy. mathematically, that would win, eh?

too much to drink last night. 3 beers at lerner pub before they ran out. 3 magic hats #9 and 3 honey browns from ufm, drank one of each at 703, headed to lion's head. drank more there. sang heat of the moment twice. corey came! and then went further downtown to pick up "loose women" (in his own words). bought 2 beef patties from west side. back to hogan, ate a patty, watched old school, passed out, was woken up, stumbled home sleepy. didn't wake up til 12:45 today.

played pickup. had one really nice d, that's enough to make me happy for the day. picked up a bunch of don's stuff from phil's suite, including the !!tv!! our common room might now actually be common. also bought 3 books from a lady on the sidewalk outside the first floor package room for $6. a prayer for owen meany, which i had to read for high school and loved. i lent it to raeka's mom and she never gave it back! farenheit 451, which i'd always meant to read but couldn't find for less than $8 in any bookstore. and the sound and the fury, mostly to round out 3, which gave me a buck off, but also because my ap english teacher, one of the coolest characters i've had the privilege to know, says it's an incredible book. laird ellis is the man.

eating other patty now. life is good. definitely not bad, at least.

since i like to blog in fits, or spurts, or "fartlicks," as jess likes to call them, i'm going to blog small now, and hopefully that will snowball into me blogging everything that's happened in the past 8 days. sorry about that. i'll try not to lapse so bad in the future.

my schedule

monday 4:10 - 6:50 microfabrication something

tuesday 9:35 - 10:50 signals and systems 2
11:00 - 12:15 data structures
2:40 - 3:55 topics in asian civilization
4:10 - 6:50 applied math
ow...

wednesday 4:10 - 6:50 solid state lab

thursday 9:35 - 10:50 signals and systems 2
11:00 - 12:15 data structures
2:40 - 3:55 topics in asian civilization
5:00 - 6:00 asian civ recitation


also, i finished how to be good. the ending is kind of strange. nothing much is resolved. the man gradually becomes more normal and less saintly, and his wife (the narrator) decides that she can be happy with her life. i guess that's the way with novels nowadays, is nothing really happens. but i do wish there was some attempt at closure.

i wrote up a whole list of topics to blog about, but i think i'll take care of that later (never).

magic hat #9 at the heights! late night happy hour!
wednesday night karaoke at amcafe!
beef patties at west side!