Sunday, January 29, 2006

lipstick sadness

i am overflowing with sorrow. the beautiful lipstick plant that i tend to lost the only two buds that had blossomed while i was away this weekend. it has a lot of buds still, which gives me hope for the future, but exactly the two buds that had blossomed fell off, and no others. and one of them had just opened up too. sad. i've been keeping it down in the kitchen, but i think i'll move it to my room.

catherine, i've let you down. i'm sorry. i understand if you don't want to be friends with me anymore.

Monday, January 23, 2006

the dandelion girl

real life blows.

no contest.

seriously, read it. also, buy rah xephon from ddd for $60, then read the wikipedia entry.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

journal entry for this course i'm taking

since it is so much easier to just paste thoughts i was forced to have and then record, i figured i'd get twice as much bang for my buck and reuse it here. the entry is horribly aimless, i start on one thing then go off on another repeatedly. but i don't think i could write all my thoughts/frustrations about teaching/these goddamn kids, given infinitely much paper and/or time. it would just go on, forever.

the way education is "reforming," they're only going to get stupider.

Building Math Understanding from the Ground Up!
Eric Chang
Journal entry 1, 1/19/2006 - readings 4 and 6

I teach a geometry support class, support being a euphemism for kids that failed geometry already and have to retake it. In addition, I have students that failed algebra I and have inexplicably been assigned by our most capable guidance counselors to take both algebra I again, as well as geometry for the first time, in the same semester. Sci-Tech is on a block semester schedule, which means these unforunates have been taking math classes for 3 hours of each day, every day, since September. So I deal with a lot of children that hate math, have always hated math, have parents who hate math, have probably been told by teachers at some point that they'll never be good at math, and so on.

I also teach a probability and statistics class, which up until this year was a joke course for seniors. I have students whose counselors signed them up for it even though they failed algebra II, because they (the counselors) think statistics is a class for kids who are bad at math. Although these are decent kids willing to do work, some of them are not exactly naturals when it comes to this subject.

My third class is AP stats, but I have very few issues with them regarding their math backgrounds. I'll mostly be talking about my geometry class in this entry.

The readings bring up a lot of frustrating points for me. I look at myself, and all I had to do in high school was memorize processes. I believe the thinking at the time was, learn the process first, get the big picture later. As in once we got the details, the nuts and bolts, the why of it would eventually appear in our brains, kind of like enlightenment? And that all worked for me. Now I don't know why it did - maybe I'm an atypical case.

Reading 4 talks about fluency, and how learning the standard algorithms will not help students develop fluency. That's true on some levels but I still think the algorithms are needed. I don't see how one can expect a student to be proficient, or whatever you want to call it, in math if they can't memorize simple processes. And long division (the how and why of which I could explain, by the way), which some people would choose as the poster child for unnecessarily difficult and unnecessary algorithms, is simple. It might look long and arduous but it's really just the same few steps repeated over and over. Like it or not, I really believe that some memorization skills are required for proficiency in math. Without memorizing that V = B * h, how is a student supposed to realize that he or she needs to find the area of the base of the prism first, or in the case of a pyramid, they need to solve for the height using the pythagorean theorem with the cross section of the pyramid as a right triangle? I have kids who have learned how to do exactly that, and I try to emphasize that it only applies to this specific situation, but they zero in on the process and don't place importance on the why of it. Then when they get to a pyramid where the height is already given, they're lost because this time they're already one step closer to the solution than in the previous problem, but they don't realize this.

I try very hard to give my students multiple approaches to every problem I give them. For example, Any time we deal with circles, I tell them that they can keep it in terms of pi or multiply the 3.14 in and round to the nearest tenth. I don't care. I know some like it better one way or the other. I don't even try to force them to learn both, even though a student fluent in this topic would understand that there's no difference. But to my students they are completely unrelated. When I show them that the only difference is muliplying the pi in as a decimal approximation, though, I see only blank stares.

Reading 6 talks about estimation, and the importance of evaluating reasonableness of results. In statistics this is everywhere. Since almost all of statistics deals directly with real-life situations, and most statistics problems are modeled on these situations, the answer can always be evaluated on the basis of whether or not its reasonable. Whenever the students are doing classwork and bring me their work to ask if they got the correct solution, I always ask them if that answer makes sense. Whenever I have to re-explain a concept to a student one-on-one, I find myself asking, "does this make sense," repeatedly as we talk about the reason for each step in the process. They usually nod their heads; I have no idea if they're being truthful. Overall I get positive results from this, though.

Lately we've been working with expected values, and there's all this stuff about whether or not a probability is less than, equal to, or greater than a certain value. And it's not theory or anything like that, it's concrete, real stuff. There are multiple ways to get which one it is: >, =, or <, one is straight-up calculation and another is testing for reasonableness and working backwards from there. I showed the class both methods, but it's only taken hold for a few of the kids. I don't want to describe the actual process here though, that would take too much space.

I try very hard to give my students that understanding, to tell them how or why this formula is accepted as true. When teaching the formulas for area of a parallelogram, I showed how it was derived from the area of a sliced up rectangle. For a triangle, I showed how its area was derived from half of a parallelogram. For a trapezoid, I showed how its area was derived from two parallelograms. I told them that they didn't NEED to know it, but it would help them remember the formulas if they understood where they came from. On the test for that chapter, I asked them to explain any of those three as bonus questions, and not one kid even tried to answer it. Even the brighter ones in my class left it blank.

There's so much more I could say about my geometry class and my mostly failed attempts to get any one of multiple methods to stick in their heads for any given topic. But it would just turn into a rant about how kids these days expect everything handed to them on a silver platter and we can only spoon feed them so much before we're just ensuring our own downfall as a society.

Oh, and I will never get used to going over a whole problem on the board, and after having solved for whatever the problem said to find, having four kids raise their hands to ask, "what's the answer?" I just said it, for crying out loud. And if I was a student, even one who was not paying attention, I think I'd be not stupid enough to go with the number written at the bottom of all the work.

Friday, January 13, 2006

i know what it is

it's this damn response. the fact that people are talking about it, and gay people think that nongay people won't see it because they hate gays, or are scared of gays, or are scared of becoming gays, or scared that their children will become gays. the idea that all over the country, people are asking other people if they want to see it, and when they say, eh, or no, or not really, they are asked, jokingly or not, if they're scared that they might like it.

oo, it's so daring. oo, you're homophobic. oo, who would have thought, let's take an american icon and RUIN IT. think clint eastwood? you're fucking right i'll think clint eastwood. i'll think of him kicking ass and banging dirty female hookers and not wearing a condom because a) condoms would be anachronistic and b) dirty harry fucking raw dogs it all day and all night. it makes me angry that i have to add female to the front of hookers now because people might think i mean male hookers when i'm talking about COWBOYS. jeez.

now i think i'm making it out to be a bigger deal than it is. but the fact that it's so easy to find these articles (given, it is the internet) talking about the _impact_ of this movie. it kills me. i think i hate anything that garners attention like this. what a fucking slut of a movie.

more on the gayness

goddamn, this is bugging me. now look at this.

"The amazing thing about "Brokeback Mountain" is its willingness to make that threat, directly and overtly. These are not cute gays, funny gays, "Queer Eye for the Straight Guy" gays. These are "cowboys," and there is no figure in American lore more iconically male. Think Clint Eastwood, John Wayne, the Marlboro Man. The cowboy is our very embodiment of male virtues."

cowboys aren't gay. you look at a cowboy, part of the fucking cowboy way of life is having sex with those prostitutes in the saloons. female prostitutes. that constitutes almost 87% of cowboyness. gay cowboy is basically an oxymoron.

gay men don't threaten my concept of masculinity. they don't even apply. it's like saying fish threaten relativity.

what's the big deal with this gay mountain business?

judy imed me and told me she'd just seen brokeback mountain recently. also, that it was good. not much to go on.

i'm not going to see it. when i said that judy brought up larry david's little piece. his article is funny, but i'm not seeing it for different reasons.

1) i don't want to see it. it just doesn't sound interesting to me. why the fuck would i want to see a love story about gay cowboys? i don't care that they're gay, if that's what you're thinking. it actually doesn't matter. why would i want to see a love story about 2 non-gay circus clowns, or 2 down on their luck old tires? i wouldn't.

i guess that's just one reason. but really. gay cowboys. that's all i've heard, from previews, from critics, from every source of information. there is NOTHING ELSE TO THE MOVIE. why would i want to see that?

other things:

ang lee? what the fuck? how do you go from crouching tiger hidden dragon to brokeback mountain?

larry david mentions 2 straight friends that loved the movie, one of whom fucking GUSHES. i mean come on. the moment a guy gushes about something, he has come out of the closet. the other one, while david does not explicitly say he gushes, definitely gives a very gushy speech. something tells me that those 2 friends are not straight.

"One of the best love stories ever," one gushed. Another went on, "Oh, my God, you completely forget that it's two men. You in particular will love it." [taken from that link above. i hope this isn't copyright infringement or some such]

oh, my god. you are gay. i don't think it's possible to watch a movie about two men falling in love, cowboys or not, and forget that they are men. and this has nothing to do with them being gay guys. if i watched a movie about two women, i wouldn't forget their genders. i mean, they're right up there on that giant screen the whole time. similarly, i could watch a movie that used the conventional pairing of a man and a woman, and i think i'd be able to answer a quiz on how many men were in the relationship, and how many women were in the relationship, afterwards.

this bothers me. i'm not sure why. it must be because i'm homophobic! boy is that overused.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

chuck norris

here are the top thirty facts, as sorted by me: (followed by its rank on the hedonistica link, done by voting apparently)

1) Chuck Norris' tears cure cancer. Too bad he has never cried. (1)

2) Chuck Norris sold his soul to the devil for his rugged good looks and unparalleled martial arts ability. Shortly after the transaction was finalized, Chuck roundhouse kicked the devil in the face and took his soul back. The devil, who appreciates irony, couldn't stay mad and admitted he should have seen it coming. They now play poker every second Wednesday of the month. (5)

3) As a teen Chuck Norris impregnated every nun in a convent tucked away in the hills of Tuscany. Nine months later the nuns gave birth to the 1972 Miami Dolphins, the only undefeated and untied team in professional football history. (14)

4) Chuck Norris built a time machine and went back in time to stop the JFK assassination. As Oswald shot, Chuck met all three bullets with his beard, deflecting them. JFK's head exploded out of sheer amazement. (10)

5) Chuck Norris appeared in the "Street Fighter II" video game, but was removed by Beta Testers because every button caused him to do a roundhouse kick. When asked bout this "glitch," Norris replied, "That's no glitch." (23)

6) Chuck Norris once ate three 72 oz. steaks in one hour. He spent the first 45 minutes having sex with his waitress. (21)

7) Achilles was supposedly the greatest warrior of all time, but he died because of his weak spot, the Achilles tendon. There is no Chuck Norris tendon. (22)

8) They once made a Chuck Norris toilet paper, but it wouldn't take shit from anybody. (13)

9) When Chuck Norris sends in his taxes, he sends blank forms and includes only a picture of himself, crouched and ready to attack. Chuck Norris has not had to pay taxes ever. (11)

10) Chuck Norris has already been to Mars; that's why there are no signs of life there. (12)

11) Chuck Norris is currently suing NBC, claiming Law and Order are trademarked names for his left and right legs. (8)

i think they get noticeably weaker after this

12) To prove it isn't that big of a deal to beat cancer. Chuck Norris smoked 15 cartons of cigarettes a day for 2 years and aquired 7 different kinds of cancer only to rid them from his body by flexing for 30 minutes. Beat that, Lance Armstrong. (15)

13) According to Einstein's theory of relativity, Chuck Norris can actually roundhouse kick you yesterday. (26)

14) At birth, Chuck Norris came out feet first so he could roundhouse kick the doctor in the face. Nobody delivers Chuck Norris but Chuck Norris. (30)

15) If you can see Chuck Norris, he can see you. If you can't see Chuck Norris you may be only seconds away from death. (6)

16) Chuck Norris is not hung like a horse... horses are hung like Chuck Norris. (19)

i don't even like the rest. not much agreement between me and the voters, either.

also interesting: chuck norris has responded to these "facts" on his official website. what a guy. remember, without him the average joes would have been forced to forfeit to globo gym. "fucking chuck norris..."'

also, i love how conan is over a year ahead of everyone else with his chuck norris fascination. when vivendi universal acquired NBC he was at the forefront with his patented walker texas ranger lever. good times.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

happy new year

so many blogs have been inactive. i think it's the winter slowing everyone down. although, this goes against my theory that more blogging is a sign of depression.

as for me, i haven't blogged lately because whenever i get to the composition page, the only thing that comes to my mind is how much watching love hina has affected me. i've seen a lot of movies and i've watched a lot of tv shows, but nothing has ever made my life seem as plain and dull and unremarkable as this one.

how embarassing and sad is that?